Updated: Dec 19, 2018
"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whosever believeth in him should not parish, but have everlasting life" John 3:16
This scripture is so profound, because it shows the depth in which God's love is endless that he willingly paid the ultimate price with his life to save ours. He died for the world, not just for those who believe and are righteous. So why do we feel that we are unworthy of his love, mercy, and grace? Is it because we feel our sins are greater than God's love? As an unwed single mother, I used to feel that my poor choices made me not worthy of God's love.
Do you remember the story of Hagar in the old testament of the Bible? Sarah was married to Abraham and she had a maidservant name Hagar. Sarah did not want to wait for God's promise of baring a child for Abraham, so she offered her maidservant to him. Hagar bore Abraham a son and named him Ishamel. In her old age, Sarah was able to bare a son for Abraham and named him Isaac. Sarah became jealous of Hagar and told Abraham to cast Hagar and her son into the wilderness.
In the wilderness, Hagar cried out for her son, because she did not want to watch him die from hunger. An angel called out to Hagar and told her fear not, because God heard the voice of her son. Do you sometimes feel like Hagar and ask questions like "how will I provide for my children or how will I face my family and friends being unwed and pregnant?" "How will I pick up the pieces after this failed marriage?" "How will I go on after my spouse passed away?"
We must remember God's ultimate sacrifice and how he gave up his life so we can have ours and our children can have theirs. Hagar was a single mother, but God made her son a great nation. Regardless, the circumstances in which our children were conceived, understand God can use our children for a greater purpose. God makes provisions for us even when the situations looks impossible.
God's love comes with correction not condemnation. "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit" Romans 8:1. We are free from our past, our shame, and our sins. Ours sins were nailed at the cross and washed with Jesus's blood. Our past is a place of reference, not a place of residence. It's time for us to forgive ourselves. Release yourself in the name of Jesus!
What past circumstances have you not forgiving yourself for?
Prayer: Father thank you for your forgiveness. Today I chose to forgive myself. I release myself in the name of Jesus. Amen.